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Working on My New Normal

Lots has changed in the last year.  And we are moving into a season where we know will be filled with even more change.  It’s hard to look at what we have right now – knowing that in three years, it will likely be completely different.

Otto and I are working on our new normal.  This summer, I took a pretty big leap of faith and put myself in a small group with five other women.  I knew one of them well enough to call her a good friend (but not close enough to hang out at each other’s houses), two I would call “school friends” that I would talk to during preschool, but not really much outside of that, and two I didn’t know at all.

For three months, we went through “The Best Yes” by Lysa TerKeurst.  And we came out the other side vastly different.  I gained a group of women who walk into my home without knocking and would do my laundry if I had an emergency. But in that bible study, I lost a lot, also.  I was challenged to look at what God wanted for me and my family, and then say my “best” yes.

Sometimes we say yes – and it’s not WRONG or BAD, but it prevents us from giving our best.  As a mum, I find myself feeling like I *need* to say yes to so many *GOOD* things, but then I am worn out and tired when it’s time to say yes to the *BEST* things.  So I started to say “not at this time” and “I’m sorry, but my schedule doesn’t allow me to take on that responsibility” and hardest “no, I am not in the season of my life to be able to help you with that”.

I am down to three major commitments outside my home: I’m the Troop Coordinator for GO’s American Heritage Girl Troop, I am Went’s Room Mum, and I serve at the Kids Sign-In Desk for an hour on Sunday mornings.  That’s it.  Everything else I say “yes” to is a one-time deal, and has only short-term commitments.

It’s hard.  I know B10 and CW miss their scouting (though, that decision was made with 100% of their input, and they had their own reasons for wanting to step back themselves), but at the same time – we have had more family days.  More time to sit around and laugh and talk and just BE together.  I miss being a part of our local Mom Group, but find myself soaking in the time I have with my Best Yes Girls.  I realize that my dream of finishing my Master’s Degree has become much further away, and could very likely never happen.  Which is disappointing, but necessary.

I’m stepping back.  I’m re-evaluating everything, and praying it through with Otto.  What does this season look like for us?  What does it look like for me?  Where are my priorities?

I’m coming back stronger, it’s simply going to take a while to figure out my new normal.

Until then, every sunrise is a blessing.

~Mummy Butterfly  )i(

Early Morning

6:30 am is my favorite time of day.

Everyone in the house is sleeping, but there is enough light coming through my window to cast those blue shadows everywhere. KB is curled up into my chest. I love night with her. During the day, she cries because she wants to be held. And nurses for what feels like hours.

But at night she nurses quickly, then moves herself into me, our skin touching. Her little face turned up, so if she fluttered her eyes opened she would be staring at me. It’s like she knows she has me, so there is no need to nurse any longer than she must to fill her tummy. Her little tiny fingers reach up and curl into fists under her chin.

I can feel her butterfly breath on my collarbone. I can see her tiny nose, and if I squint I can make out her pale eyelashes in the faint light.

This is when I pray. For her, to grow into a godly woman – but not too quick, I can’t lose my baby too quickly. For GO and her next adventure – my new first grader in less than a week. For Went to stay as outwardly loving as he is, and for us all to make it through his toddler stage.

I pray for B10 and CW as they complete their schoolwork. CW has one week left, and B10 has two (his last week is final exams). I pray for CAM, as she is almost a junior – and is dealing with her best friend graduating/leaving for college.

I pray for OPM. She leaves high school in two weeks. Her new adventures are just beginning, even as this set of adventures draws to a close.

I send up prayers for Otto and I. Sometimes they feel like desperate pleas, depending on the night we had.

But mostly, I thank God for the beauty in my arms. I beg Him to make the pain go away, but if that isn’t what is going to happen, then I beg Him to not let me forget how tiny she is. How much I love this part of me, the being a mother. I want to be happy with each stage as my caterpillars grow, but it is bittersweet to know this is the last one.

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I pray I can remember it all through the pain. And I hold her close. And watch her breath.

~Mummy Butterfly  )i( 

St. Patrick’s Day

KB’s actual due date has “arrived” – and I was able to get photos of my Littles in Green.  I love this holiday mostly for the clothes.  And the giggles of little caterpillars when they try to catch someone not wearing green.  (Or if you’re Went – just lots of giggles, because there is pinching and tickling going on!)

She is so beautiful!

She is so beautiful!

GO and Went in their school outfits :)

GO and Went in their school outfits 🙂

Went asking for his "babies"

Went asking for his “babies”

Went has his "babies" and GO is asking to hold KB (her "baby"!)

Went has his “babies” and GO is asking to hold KB (her “baby”!)

Went and his favorite "babies"

Went and his favorite “babies”

All three Littles!

All three Littles!

Went wants to hold KB

Went wants to hold KB

Love this face when he's carefree and playing.  :)

Love this face when he’s carefree and playing. 🙂

Sweet sisters.

Sweet sisters.

My baby girl

My baby girl

Happy St. Patrick’s Day!

~Mummy Butterfly )i(

Book Review: Discipleship

Discipleship

Discipleship

Discipleship: Living for Christ in the Daily Grind…I agreed to review this book, thinking it would be similar to many of the other books I read while I was at Seminary.  Not exactly a textbook, but not something I would necessarily gain life-changing information from.

Interestingly enough, it actually did seem more like a textbook to me, the individual chapters would be excellent stand-alone “lessons” for personal reflection that could very easily go deeper than the author went in his book.  His approach was one of painful honesty.  His life (Mr. Arnold passed away in 1982), was a character study in what it means to attempt to live like the early church, but in today’s society.

This is not a novel, and is not something one would sit down and read cover to cover.  But the truths that are written will speak to any individual willing to invest the time in studying the book.  I was touched personally by his chapter “The Lower Nature”.  About how we must be cautious to not only prevent ourselves from allowing “worldly” things to take God’s place (like sports, money, or business), but not to allow even God’s great gifts (like the beauty of nature or the joys of human love) to replace the real experience of Christ.  I know this has been a personal struggle for me, especially as my family has searched for a church, and I was struck by his ability to speak directly to the heart of the matter.

This is a book I am glad I own, and will be referring back to time and time again.

~Mummy Butterfly  )i(

Disclosure: I received a copy of this book from the publisher (Plough Publishing) for review purposes. I was not compensated or required to write a positive review. The opinions expressed in this review are entirely my own.

Purex Insider: Purex Fels-Naptha Laundry Soap

As part of being a Purex Insider, I was given a free Purex Fels-Naptha Laundry Bar.  I have never used such a thing before, and was eager to see if it would hold up to the many stains of my house.  I have never used ANY laundry soap before as a stain remover, but I knew that the Caterpillars would give me a great testing ground.  I was thinking it would be one of the older boys that would produce the item of clothing for me to test it on…

Then I did one of those “stupid mum things”…  Went has an adorable Thanksgiving Outfit.  A-DOR-A-BLE!  It has a cute turkey on it and says “Thankful for Mommy” and he is just precious wearing it.  I was saving it for our Thanksgiving Day – but Otto had a flag football game on the Wednesday night before TurkEve and I thought “ah, wouldn’t he look cute wearing it to the game?”

Stupid mistake.  That just meant that my son wore his special Thanksgiving outfit and walked all over a nasty, dirty, concrete floor.  I was so mad at myself when I saw the stains.  He had a few around his collar and wrists, but the bottom of his feet made me want to cry.

Stains on the collar (I let him feed himself...)

Stains on the collar (I let him feed himself…)

Stains on the cuffs.

Stains on the cuffs.

The feet of my Little Turkey.  That is gum on the "Turkey" side. I tried to scrape it off with my fingernails and it was disgusting... :(

The feet of my Little Turkey. That is gum on the “Turkey” side. I tried to scrape it off with my fingernails and it was disgusting… 😦

That’s gum! GUM!  I felt so stupid.  As I used the laundry soap, I kept telling Otto that at least if it worked as a stain remover on some of the stains, or just the collar and arm cuffs, I would feel better.  But I could not believe I had ruined his Thanksgiving Outfit.

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I wet the bar and rubbed it all over the stains.  It was incredible simple to use (I left the bar in my Master Bath, since that is where we undress the baby).  Then, Otto tossed it in the regular wash cycle.  I had asked him to let me possibly reapply the laundry soap and wash it again, before drying it, but we were so busy, he forgot and put the entire load straight in the dryer (and I’m not going to complain about a husband who generously helps with the laundry)!

I'm Thankful for Purex Fels-Naptha!

I’m Thankful for Purex Fels-Naptha!

On Thanksgiving Morning, Otto dressed Went and brought him downstairs, telling me to get my camera.

Look at these feet!

That's my Little Turkey!  (With CLEAN FEET!)

That’s my Little Turkey! (With CLEAN FEET!)

That is ONE application of the Purex Laundry Soap.  I had *no idea* it could save these feet AND get the gum off!  It looks brand-new!  And I have a bar to share with one lucky reader.  Just leave a comment (on the blog – not on Facebook), and I will randomly choose one winner. (Please make sure you leave a valid email address, or I at least know how to get in touch with you!)

I can’t wait to share!

~Mummy Butterfly  )i(

(I was provided with free Purex Fels-Naptha Laundry Soap, but I don’t have to say anything nice.  I just do, because I LOVE it!  They have also, graciously, provided me with bars to share.)

BANANAS!

OOOOOOOH!  Tonight we tried a “real” food with Went and BOY was that a hit!  I pureed up two bananas, and divided them up for his daily snack.  He was confused when he got the first bite, but dove right in, leaving not a speck left!  He LOVED them.

"This, Mummy, is NOT Rice Cereal!"

“This, Mummy, is NOT Rice Cereal!”

"I do WHAT with this new taste sensation?"

“I do WHAT with this new taste sensation?”

"I think I like..."

“I think I like…”

"Mummy, I gots the SPOON!"

“Mummy, I gots the SPOON!”

And required a bath afterwards!  😉

Clean Hair!

Clean Hair!

Due to our family history of food allergies, we are taking things VERY slow.  So, he’ll have bananas for a week or so (rather than the standard 3 days), then we will choose food #2.  I’m thinking avocados!  😀

I love this boy!

Happy New Year!

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~Mummy Butterfly  )i(